considering suicide

[TheReal_ND]

I'm not joking

[StCapps]

I'm not joking

Can't commit suicide if you're invincible.

[TheReal_ND]

Things are rough for you too

[StCapps]

Things are rough for you too

[Smitty-48]

Is this still white girl cute feet fever, or something else now ?

[TheReal_ND]

I'm tired of being alone.

[Smitty-48]

I'm tired of being alone.

Does sound like a grind, but I don't actually know the feeling tbh

[TheReal_ND]

I had been practicing"social distancing" for so long I thought I could do this shit standing on my head. What I didn't count on is the fact that I actually don't want to. I always assumed that at some point things would turn around and I would be with a girl I loved. Now it's becoming increasingly clear I never will. Not only am I older and white girls becoming exceedingly rare but now this shit. I don't really want to mad max anymore. I don't have anything to look forward to.

I've been sitting here for hours trying to get myself to stop beating myself up but the more I think about it the less I can find a reason why I shouldn't. Yeah I have my son but my wife took him away and now she's in the country and barely responds to any calls. I'm stuck in the city trying to work still. And I'm alone. I think women genuinely don't like me or something. I don't want to go through some kind of mandatory self quarintine or whatever. I want to go out and date and find a nice white girl but fuck me they are so hard to find to begin with.

[StCapps]

I'm tired of being alone.

Does sound like a grind, but I don't actually know the feeling tbh

[TheReal_ND]

I actually feel better having got that off my chest. I feel hope now out of the blue. I think maybe now that I know what I want I can get it.