There was another one where I was lying in the all round covering my arcs, and I saw my father, like ghostly, walking towards us through the bush, and all I thought was "how is he moving so quietly? He can't be that quiet, he's not that stealthy in the woods".heydaralon wrote:I've never hallucinated like that. Whenever I go without sleep for a long time, its just little shit that seems bigger. Like a flicker of light in the corner of your eye becomes someone sneaking around or a sudden low noise sounds like a bang. I guess that's why methheads are so paranoid and shit.Smitty-48 wrote:The hallucinations came on at night, in the woods, in the dark, the normal eyes playing tricks on you thing, with sleep dep, that becomes intense, like, you think you see a horse waking through the woods, and you're like, "there's no horses in the training area, that can't be", but it's so intense, you eventually have to turn to your buddy and ask "seriously, you don't see a horse out there, do you?"
It's like, you won't let your brain sleep, so it starts trying to dream, while you're still awake.
It becomes like thirst, after a week, the urge to sleep is so powerful, you're shaking from the effort to stave it off, every little tiny thing, is hard, it's hard to do the simplest thing, it's debilitating, you're becoming crippled by the sleep dep, you get a palsy, your hands are shaking as you try to reach for things, like you're a hundred years old.
You can do bursts of energy, pure adrenaline, like if you have to run or something, but then you crash again after, and your knees are buckling, you're falling down all the time, you're not tripping, you're just collapsing, and as soon as you hit the ground, you brain tries to go to sleep right there, and you have fight your way back up to your feet, like climbing out of a hole.
It's ninety degrees, I'm carrying a hundred pounds of kit, and my feet are so shredded by blisters that I'm wringing blood out of my socks, but I don't even care about any of that, all I care about is sleep at that point, sleep was the only thing I wanted in the world, after more than a week without sleep.