GloryofGreece wrote:To Jung were your fears like let say the fact that I'm terrified of death... and even more of losing my consciousness, or ability to live my life with agency, considered my "shadow" then?
Let me take a crack at this...
At any time in our life we may be in a situation where an important need is not being met and we are in a crisis...
This is most likely to happen in early infancy or childhood when we are more fragile and vulnerable, but it can happen at any time, say in wartime.
Say our need for oxygen in a near drowning, or our need for food because our parents neglected us,
or our need for safety if we witnessed violence or were seriously mistreated... or our need for human contact if we were an infant left in hospital with no caregiver....
None of this is forgotten. We may consciously forget it... but our organism holds onto it...
The survival impulses that were thwarted then form the shadow.
We carry this record with us unconsciously.
In the future when we are somehow threatened... the survival responses that were not able to manifest at the time... manifest in the present.
We may imagine ourselves screaming at someone, or hitting them... and know this is not the right response... but feel the impulse to do so anyways.
We may feel the impulse to gamble, or have sex or steal... filling an unmet need from the past, in the present... sometimes over and over, despite some part of us that knows this isn't a good idea.
We may scream and yell.... or we may cry out in distress, or we may lash out... and feel somehow we weren't ourselves.
The shadow seems out of proportion to the situation to an outsider, or to ourselves when we look back on it...
We can experience this dark force within us in a nightmare or lurking just ready to take over.
So your fears of having your agency thwarted may be a shadow defence of your agency... from some point in the past where it was thwarted... perhaps coinciding with an event where you lost consciousness, and came close to death.