What happened

[DrYouth]

So I had to think this one over - I am not posting this impulsively.

Smitty-48 is attacking my character on this forum.
And I can roll over.... or I can stand my ground.
He claims I "creeped" him and that he saw my "true colours" and called me out on it.

So here goes - what happened - how did this all go so wrong.

I value this forum - I even value Smitty-48 - but I can't just leave this alone.
And I would never have shared this - if Smitty hadn't just thrown it all wide open.

It started at the beginning of COVID - I come on the forum... this forum that we all built together after the fall of the DCF.
My wife is up in arms about me taking it too easy on our teenagers.
I think - let the boy see his girlfriend - and Smitty - advises I take charge - get the kids in line.
ANd I do - and it works. My relationship takes a step forward.
I am grateful so a few days later when Smitty tells us his uncle died of COVID - I support him in his time of loss.

A few weeks later I am invited to a message thread at MapleLeaf forum...
Its Smitty - he has seen God and he and Capps are high as kites.
So I join in the thread.
I'm trip sitting Smitty who is on a high.
A few folks, like Monte are worried about him... but I see that he is having a spiritual epiphany.
I'm not the kind of person to label psychopathology when there is a spiritual awakening.
I stand by Smitty - help him through he ups and downs of the experience.
Stand by him at some very low points.

And along the way we bond - about our wives about our personal histories.
Women, partying - our wild youths.
And we support Capps in trying to find a girlfriend. It was fun.
But Smitty and Capps had a falling out. And the thread kind of fizzled.

Along the way I'm feeling better.
My relationship with my wife is improving. For the first time in years.
I am inspired by Smitty and his wife. They are truly an admirable couple.

But as my relationship with my wife improves, my wife and my daughter start having a very tough time.
The balance in the family is changing - and my daughter doesn't like it.

And then all hell breaks loose at the hospital.
I have to go before the uber Karen for "discipline" on some trumped up charges
After years of service to this hospital.
And I'm not going to just roll over and take it.
So I quit. It was actually one of the best things I've ever done. Don't regret it for a second.

And Smitty is there for me - he's got my back.
We talk on the phone.

Then comes the challenging part of this story.
My wife Cathy is doing some shamanic training... and its not going well.
She's not doing well... so we aren't doing well.
She has some shaman lady she thinks can help us with our marriage and I agree to try this.
Big mistake - she was a crazy woman - and she messed us both up... we trusted her and she was a fraud.
My wife agrees with this now - she has acknowledged the mistakes made.

Along the way Smitty starts a new thread - this time Monte and Hastur are part of the mix.
And this does not go so well - it wasn't like last time at all....
And one day Cathy reads a post I wrote where I admit to being high without telling my wife.
Smitty calls me out on the weakness in my relationship with Cathy and he's also not wrong.

But I'm off - I was unstable.... and I turned to Smitty for support - but I come off as desperate and creepy.
And I was desperate and creepy... so he's not wrong.
It's simply not my fundamental character. It was me at my worst.

And then I crumbled.

But I have recovered.

And I won't just roll over and have my character besmirched without telling my side of this story.
This, I suppose, is the equivalent of a duel on the internet - so be it.

[Martin Hash]

Dude, he trolled you so hard we all chringed. I don’t know what to say except welcome to the MHF.

[Smitty-48]

it's pretty simple

for years Dr Youth has been manipulating me

endless sob stories about his family

always with him as the victim

dragging me into his family business

I came to my conclusions

I told him what I thought the problem was, which is him being the problem not the victim

then he's on the phone with me, talking a bunch of bullshit

I told him where to go with that

he said he wanted to come over to my house

I said my wife doesn't want you to come over

then he shows his fangs, calls me "pussy whipped", which is not me, that's him

then he lashes out at my wife, starts running her down

also trying to convince me to go behind her back, as if I would ever do that

that was the red line, that's where I decided that Michael has a real problem with women

so he's not getting next to my wife, he's not insinuating himself any further into my life

my wife is actually afraid of him, she said "don't tell Michael where we live"

[Martin Hash]

Smitty, what was that weed you were toking back then. It was definitely military grade.

[Smitty-48]

Smitty, what was that weed you were toking back then. It was definitely military grade.

it wasn't the weed, I've been smoking weed since I was eight years old, it doesn't effect me much

I was on my chinstrap, feeling suicidal, I even called a suicide hot line

just all the rage built up from years in the military, it was breaking me down

so down on my knees, I reached out into the dark, prayed to the Lord for the first time

and He came

the disbelief barrier was broken

and then I was in free fall, reeling in the face of God, for months after

took a long time for the firestorm to calm down

[Smitty-48]

I'm not ashamed mind you, I'm not trying to hide it

but that was none the less a very personal and private process which Micheal was witness to

and now he goes and puts my shit in the street

published my personal business in confidence to the internet

because it's all about Michael, he's a pathological narcissist to me

just shows why he can't be trusted

[Martin Hash]

That sounds like a hell of an experience. Glad you pulled it out.

p.s. I went to Africa for a year during my crossover from Middle-age. Thankfully I had a partner like you do.

[Smitty-48]

at this point, the old me would retaliate against Michael

he broke the code of Omerta

the old me would come after him for that, Eyetalian style

but as I say, I've crossed over, through a door into the garden of Christianity

so I will just let it be

I don't hate the man, I just don't trust him, I wouldn't trust him to be in my home around my wife

he is very good at manipulating, and he's full of rage against women, so I don't want her exposed to his fangs

[DrYouth]

my wife is actually afraid of him, she said "don't tell Michael where we live"

Smitty vs DrYouth

In a scary human contest...

The jury will take some time to consider.

[DrYouth]

he broke the code of Omerta

It wasn't I who broke the code.

We can look back on the last few days posts to see who it was.

It won't take an expert auditor.