You could say that....TheReal_ND wrote:What's up with marriage counseling? Hit some rocky patches?
It's been a crazy ride.
Let me lay this on you... because really y'all are like my best friends... which is an interesting thing for me to admit all on it's own.
The truth is I went into a special kind of training to help patients with trauma... and it turned out that in the training you learn the skills on one another...
I matured a ton in this therapy... and with the new perspective I realized my marriage was really messed up.
I had been a real asshole to my wife and she was super stressed out... I had blocked this out of my own mind... hadn't admitted it to anyone... not even myself.
I mean I had even cheated on her and she knew it... but wouldn't admit it to herself or anyone else... but it was eating her up inside.
I had lied about it and she had bought my lies... but not really, if you know what I mean.
Well... I have been trying to work back from there... and I'll tell you this is not an easy road... I'm not sure it's even possible or anything...
But I am all in... She is an amazing woman and I guess I never really deserved her... maybe I still don't.
I am trying to be a better person in all aspects of my life... but I still have to deal with the reality that I am not nearly as good a person as I was pretending I was...
Fucked up right?
Good thing I cracked a beer.