Xenophon wrote: ↑Mon Jun 22, 2020 9:13 am
The Conservative wrote: ↑Mon Jun 22, 2020 9:10 am
Xenophon wrote: ↑Mon Jun 22, 2020 9:05 am
At this point, I'm just waiting on the match to hit the powder. I can't see this going any other way.
You don't need to, the match hit the wick, it just matters if someone pulls it out in time, or just sys fuck it and lets the damn thing blow.
I'm thinking it's the latter. This isn't going to get better. Just got to be ready to roll with the punches.
Perpetual good mood. Best war ever.
I'm already ready... that isn't my problem. My problem is that I am going to have to protect my son and wife... I can risk my own life and do what needs to be done, but like hell I am going to risk others because some fucking k-pop and Zoomer (as they are called now) can't get their fucking ways...
I have sociopathic tendencies, I am not blind to this, but what I am is afraid my son is going to see who I was 20+ years ago... I bounced, and when I did a kid came in with a gun, shot my co-worker and friend five times. I wrestled the gun away from him, and the kid was smiling, knowing full well what he did. He egged me on, and I pulled the trigger... the gun was empty. I then used the gun as a club and beat him into unconsciousness with it.
What I am afraid of is if it comes to it, I will pull the trigger without remorse if it means protecting my son and wife. I've buried that part of me because I wanted my son to grow into a young man... someone who can thrive...and not have to deal with my demons.
Now I'm just afraid that I am going to be that person again, that protects him and my wife from those wanting to burn everything down... and my fear is if I actually do have to pull the trigger, this time with a gun I know that will be loaded. That part of me that was under lock and key mentally, won't be so easily put back this time around.
I don't want to be that person, I don't want to be the cold-hearted asshole... but if these people push me to be that, that is exactly what I will be if it means my wife and son stay safe.